Thursday, December 11, 2008

Two Choices

How do you post about something that in some moments seems really huge and in other moments brings joy with the anticipation of what God will do and how He will unfold it? So Monday, my precious husband and I went to the doctor’s appointment that gave a name to the next journey in our lives. It wasn’t so much shocking, as we knew it was a diagnosis that was on the table, but it wasn’t what we had hoped. I was diagnosed with MS (multiple sclerosis). Great to have a reason for the madness I have been experiencing in the last 3 months, but not the most exciting diagnosis until …. God reminded me He is in charge and He is not surprised and His plans are good and healing is in order.

Pretty much it boils down to this …

Choice #1: Give into grief. Sit in despair. Cry and pout and get depressed about my diagnosis. Feel sorry for myself. Quit. Let this disease defeat me. Listen carefully to and embrace all the lies satan is telling me. Give into my feelings, which are not fact. Listen solely to the medical studies and the research that are not terribly encouraging. Focus completely on what I see with my earthly eyes or feel in my body. Worry about the future. Be resigned.

Choice #2: Go immediately and stand by Jesus! Claim victory. PRAY! Listen, wait, watch and obey all His directives. Every day lay this at His feet. Stand in His healing. Watch for and rejoice in all the miracles and God moments He has planned in this journey (so cool)! Know that we are sitting in His hand. Know that healing is imminent. Focus on looking with my spiritual eyes. Completely ignore the nay-sayers, who don’t know Jesus the way I do, and pray they see how awesome and cool He is by watching me. Get out my sword and fight against satan’s lies. Immerse myself in the Lord and what He says. Embrace my life and enjoy my family and write down this entire journey in order to tell every detail of God's infinite greatness that is ever present in our lives. Be a light for Him in this journey! NEVER, NEVER, NEVER give up!

I choose number 2. There’s just no better place than standing with my Jesus. I choose to be a miracle. Now, how cool is that! I choose to have the faith that God will heal me and stand in it. That’s it. To me, it is the only choice. I will choose life. I will choose joy. I will choose Jesus! I know there will be moments that are not easy in this journey, but I know that God has and will continue to surround me with his grace and mercy and we will walk through it together. I have the faith of Abraham. I have the faith of a mustard seed. I have friends who will dig through a roof and lower me to the Father for healing. I have seen His greatness and it is not a one time deal. Praise God!

Let the journey begin!


Anonymous said...

Yeah, you know why you want to be standing with your Jesus? Cause He has his heel on the throat of that demon called MS, and He's going to squish it like a bug.

You want to be standing by your Jesus because His is the only name that means anything.

You want to be standing by your Jesus because the same power that put life back into Him and raised Him from the grave is pouring forth onto you to give healing to those nerves that MS tried to destroy and putting life--whole life--back into you.

You want to stand by your Jesus 'cause HE HAS ALREADY WON!!!!

And, my friend, I'm standing right there with you.

Now, let's take your mountain. I hear the view from the top is astounding.

Love you!

LisaD said...

My sweet, sweet sister,
I can so clearly see God's order and sovereignty as He has been preparing you for this journey. He gave you grace and mercy and taught you the overwhelming comfort and joy that comes only through complete dependence on Him through such a difficult time. Then He restored the family that He knew you would need to support you along this new adventure. What an amazing God we serve!! I am standing at Jesus' feet with you and praying for you every step of the way!! I know God is going to do something amazing through this as He continues to use you in a mighty way for His glory.
Love you,

amber woodward said...


I am praying for absoulte healing for you and peace in the beginning of this new journey.

I love you

Anonymous said...

standing with you and praying for you!

your faith and steadiness in this challenges and inspires me...

Lisa said...

How awesome that God created us with free choice. Even more awesome when we choose HIM! Debra, thank you for stopping by our blog. I'm so blessed to have found yours. What an encouragement and reminder you have given to me this day. No matter what our struggles are this side of heaven - we are not alone. He left us His spirit to love and guide us. Our God, the one who holds the planets and stars in place, is the same God who cares about every detail of our lives as His children.

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you. For I am the Lord your God, The Holy One of Israel, your Savior." Isa. 43:1b-3a

(i did respond to your comment on our blog, but then thot i'd comment here just in case you didn't make it back there)

blessing to you!!

Paige said...

Hand me the hammer or the shovel...whatever it takes to lower you through the roof to Jesus!

Julie said...

Sweet friend I will be fighting for you, standing with you and pounding the gates of heaven for you. I know you are in the best place possible. Have peace and don't forget who you are.

Jen said...

Praying for you dear friend, complete healing!

Mimi Martin said...

Praying, believing, rejoicing, and growing with you. Debra, you radiate with the pure light of Christ.